Multiple Suicide Survivor: How God Kept Me Alive Through Trauma, Abuse, And the Darkest Nights of My Life - Paperback

by Jo Smoak (Author)

In Multiple Suicide Survivor, Jo Smoak shares her deeply personal story of surviving childhood trauma, emotional abuse, abandonment, mental health struggles, and repeated moments of despair while discovering that God's grace can still reach into the darkest places of human suffering.

From an early age, Jo's life was marked by instability, fear, and pain. Childhood trauma, family dysfunction, rejection, and emotional wounds shaped the way she saw herself and the world around her. As the years passed, the weight of those experiences followed her into adolescence and adulthood, leading to depression, hopelessness, overwhelming emotional pain, and moments where she questioned whether life was worth continuing.

Yet this memoir is not a story that glorifies suffering.

It is a story about survival, faith, and the quiet ways God continues to sustain people even when they feel broken beyond repair.

With honesty and vulnerability, Jo writes about:

• Growing up in emotionally painful environments
• Childhood trauma and lasting emotional wounds
• Feelings of abandonment and rejection
• Anxiety, depression, and mental health struggles
• The pressure to appear "strong" while hurting internally
• Searching for worth through achievement and success
• Wrestling with faith during seasons of suffering
• Discovering healing, purpose, and hope through Christ

As Jo shares her journey through heartbreak, loneliness, emotional pain, and healing, readers will see the reality of what trauma can do to a person-but also the reality that pain does not have to define the ending of a story. Throughout the book, one truth continues to emerge: God never stopped pursuing her.

Even during the moments when Jo felt unseen, forgotten, or overwhelmed by despair, God continued carrying her through every season of fear, grief, confusion, and brokenness.

Written with emotional honesty, spiritual reflection, and compassion for others who are hurting, Multiple Suicide Survivor offers encouragement for readers struggling with trauma, emotional pain, anxiety, depression, church hurt, grief, or feelings of hopelessness.

This Christian memoir speaks to:

• Survivors of childhood trauma
• Readers seeking healing and hope
• Christians wrestling with suffering and faith
• Those battling depression or emotional wounds
• Anyone searching for purpose after pain
• Readers who feel exhausted, unseen, or alone

Jo's story reminds readers that healing is often slow, messy, and imperfect-but that God's presence can still be found even in life's darkest valleys. No matter how broken life feels, hope still exists. And God is still writing redemption stories every single day.