God, If You're Not Up There... - Paperback

by Darrell Hammond (Author)

A New York Times Bestseller

As seen in Netflix's "Cracked Up: The Darrell Hammond Story", this groundbreaking memoir is a raw look inside the troubled life and mind of an American comic genius.

By turns poignant and hilarious, Hammond takes readers from the set of Saturday Night Live, where he was the show's longest-tenured cast member, to the drug-ridden streets of Harlem and into the twisting corridors of his own unflaggingly humorous consciousness. Mingling behind-the-scenes stories from television's best-loved comedy series with a dark look inside a world-class funnyman, God If You're Not Up There, I'm F*cked is a book sure to resonate with anyone who shares a talent for performance, a love of comedy, or a desire to know how an artist can climb from the deepest despair to the very top of his profession.

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A raw, poignant, and often hilarious look inside the troubled life and mind of an American comic icon.

From his harrowing childhood filled with abuse to a lifetime of addiction and psychiatric hospitalizations, to the peak of success as the longest-tenured cast member of Saturday Night Live, Darrell Hammond delves into the darkest corners of his life, on both sides of the camera, with honesty and a fierce comic wit. Beneath his hilarious dead-on impressions of Bill Clinton and others, Hammond suffered from largely undiagnosed mental anguish that resulted in horrifying flashbacks, a stint in a Bahamian jail, and ultimately a dark night in a Harlem crack house. He fought to learn the truth about his past for three decades, determined finally to do right by his young daughter and to set the record straight about falling so low while achieving such heights.