Because We Must: A Memoir - Paperback

by Tracy Youngblom (Author)

A breathtaking memoir navigating caregiving, motherhood, and letting go after a tragic accident

On March 16th, 2015, Tracy Youngblom was rushing to finish last-minute preparations for a class she would teach the next day when there was an unexpected knock at her door. Grudgingly, she answered it to find a uniformed officer standing on her front porch. Youngblom realized then that her youngest son Elias should have been arriving home from a trip to Fargo where he was visiting friends at North Dakota State University. The officer told her that Elias had been in an accident and was in the hospital. Later, she learned that his car had been struck nearly head on by a drunk driver going 70 miles per hour. Denial and shock took over as she made the long drive from their home in Coon Rapids, Minnesota. When she saw Elias in the ICU-swollen beyond recognition, covered in stitches, with a myriad of tubes attached to him-the full gravity of the situation descended.

On the day of the crash, Elias had been driving back to Coon Rapids to celebrate National Ice Cream Day with friends. An avid lover of music, he'd been working as a conductor while wrapping up his degree, moving toward his dream of becoming a marching band director. After the accident, Elias begins his long journey of recovery, which is set back when doctors announce that his optic nerves are dead. Despite it all, Elias never wavers, approaching each challenge with resilience, grace, and humor.

Alongside Elias, Youngblom faces her own challenges, staying by his side in the ICU for weeks, coordinating with other family members and friends, and never flagging in her care of her severely injured son, yet all the while coping with her own emotions, fears, and trauma. She struggles to support Elias, heal her self, and let him go on with his life. In this riveting memoir, Youngblom traverses her family's lives before and after the accident, capturing the complications of grief, recovery, and the strength it takes to move forward-because we must.

Author Biography

Tracy Youngblom is the author of two poetry collections, Boy and Growing Big, as well as two chapbooks. Her individual poems, stories, and essays have been featured in Shenandoah, The Cortland Review, St. Katherine Review, Blue Mountain Review, Great River Review, Naugatuck River Review, and New York Quarterly, among others. Read more about her at www.tracyyoungblom.net.